It’s been nearly a week since the mass murder in a nightclub in Orlando. A week of shock, sadness and anger all around.

In the week since we’ve added fb profile ribbons and rainbow flags everywhere.

We’ve hashtagged and prayed…or at the very least we’ve hashtagged that we’re praying.

And I still feel…nothing.

I’m not shocked. I can’t even begin to process the stories of the 49 people who died while dancing.

And I’m terrified by that.

Maybe it’s because this shooting happened in Orlando – home to “the happiest place on earth” and also home to my entire family.

The guy who did this could easily have passed by the people I love most at any moment before Saturday. Literal evil couldn’t be anymore close to home.

Putting aside my personal denial that this even happened, I’m so troubled that things like this keep happening it’s becoming less and less of a national event.

After Newtown I remember people stopping and talking about it, it was all that was on everyone’s mind for at least a week. We all watched the public service led by President Obama. We cried with him as he talked about little girls splashing in rain puddles in heaven.

But this time…the worst time…I feel like we’re all just going through the motions. Sharing some stuff on facebook…linking to an anti-assault weapon petition or two and #praying.

And to me that complacency is more frightening than all the lunatics with assault weapons combined.

There are more of us than there are of them. We have the power to shift the conversation and the momentum of the political arena, and gun laws and consciousness as a whole.

I believe this to the depths of my soul.

It’s all possible to fix, we but we’re going to have to actually look the darkness in the face, talk about it and commit to creating a change – beginning at the root cause of these huge issues that are literally destroying civilization.

I hope you’ll join me.

“I have decided to stick with love…Hate is too great a burden to bear.”  – MLK Jr.

~Ashley

p.s.
I wrote this blog after the attacks in Paris on ways to bring a little more light in the world. Now feels like a good time to read it again